Tuesday 23 August 2011

Brain Explosion

Sometimes being stuck in a body that I can't control properly annoys the heck out of me. When people look at me when I'm doing something out of the norm, it makes me upset, because they don't understand that I can't control it. They should try and be me for one whole day, then I'm quite sure that they will get so frustrated at themselves and the world, for their body not doing what they want it to do. Do you think an Autistic person enjoys hurting themselves or other people, they don't enjoy it at all, they just totally can't control it as much as they want to control it. So please think again when you stare at a person acting out of the norm.

I wish i could be normal just for one day, if I had only one wish thats what I would wish for. Just to have friends, to be able to talk when I want to, and not to get any sensory overloads. I know it may not be possible ever in my life time, this is not to say that I have trouble accepting the way I am. It's more or less describing what it is actually like every single day of my life. Imagine not being able to understand your own emotions or other peoples, it gets very confusing and unpredictable. Then all you want is for everything to stop and to escape away, to me escaping away is withdrawing back into my shell, the only way that I know is safe!